Hard-Boiled Wonderland

Have you ever felt like you were just falling apart, one piece at a time?

And the pieces that fell from you crumble as soon as it left you, and not just crumble into some minute pieces of matter, of substance but into a void, like the particles themselves were tired of this state of existence and were waiting for a chance to reach into obscurity, chaos, nothingness....

One small piece at a time it goes, a giant darkness made of nothing and blood and pain and numbness taking mouthfuls at a time away from your being and you don't even realize it except for the sharp, aching feeling of missing something vital....

You scored as Seishirou. You are like Seishirou Sakurazuka from Tokyo Babylon and X. Um... that's scary. People who do not know you very well may very well think that you are a kind and gentle soul - someone who loves animals and cares about the environment. But really, you probably couldn't care less. Your true nature is that you are a bit obsessive and antisocial. And maybe a bit of a stalker. And all of this would be a bad thing... if you weren't so damn cool.  Who is your inner CLAMP character? created with QuizFarm.com They made me do a tie breaker between these two: 1 It would be nice to find someone who is for me, and only me. 2 I have a rather anti-social disposition. Both of which fits me equally well. Guess which choice landed me as Seishirou. I was also curious as to what the other would give me so i also tried the first one and got..... You scored as Chii. According to results, you are most like Chii from Chobits. Innocent, adorable and fresh, you love learning new things and exploring the world, even though it might get you in to trouble from time to time. You are happy in your own little world, and you feel best when you are able to show those around you how much you care. Just remember to "recharge" yourself from time to time and you'll be just fine.  Who is your inner CLAMP character? created with QuizFarm.com

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How do these two even merit a tie breaker?  I experienced a weird moment of poetic irony when I saw my results.  A single choice decided whether I'd be labeled as a devil or an angel.  But then I seem to get this kind of result on quite a few of those quizzies and personality tests and such. Does this mean that I'm that two-faced? Or maybe just wishy-washy and ambiguous...all of which is not an appealing trait for a person to have, to come to think of it.

Hm.....

But I like the two characters that I came out to be~ ^-^

...that's what I feel like.

I am very sad to say that I have gotten to a point in my life where constant celebrating cease to be fun very quickly; .....I shall stop there to spare myself further discouragement.

I just want this marathon to be OVER.

...I shall fall and not never, but take some ungodly amount of time getting back up.

I am TIRED.
My life is disgustingly turning out as a circus. A rabid one at that.
A brick of chocolate a day is the only thing keeping me on my feet cause my body all of sudden decided that it didn't like caffeine anymore. (That little discovery nearly cost me my sanity few days back when I dranked down a grande and gained a killer migraine that lasted through the whole day.)

I desperately need to reset and clear my life.

Why is it that I am more busy at home than anywhere else?
It's like my whole family and their friends decided that I should become their private chauffeur. I left this morning at 8am and did a lot of driving and errands but at the end of the day (good god..the day's not even over yet...must drag my carcass to work at 6) I'm dead tired and left with a feeling that despite the flurry of activity so far, I haven't done anything really. Ugh. It's the most unsatisfying sensation in the world.

I really should get on with my life. At this rate, I'll be a go-fer for everyone else.

I cannot begin to express how I loved this movie. My sister and I watched it together this past week and decided that Miyazaki must be on some wonderfully exotic hallucinogen. This guy's imagination just boggles the mind. Watching a Miyazaki film is like wandering through a wonderland built with layers of symbols and dazzling images. Naussica is still my favorite but Howl is a close second.

Joined the lj community...finally.
Hope this works out better than xanga.

We'll see.